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Loki Odinson-Laufeyson ([personal profile] ihasanarmy) wrote2012-06-06 09:44 am

Log: Move your dead bones

Log: Inside the Fire
Who: Jane, and Loki
Where: The Ironwoods maybe Asgard
What: Loki brings Jane back at a high cost.



He had had mortal lovers in the past, shit he had spent ages as a farmers maid back in the older days of the world when he was still young but already a man. He had spent his time on the farm as a woman until he grew bored before returning to Asgard. Loki generally tried not to bother with mortals their lives were too short to become emotionally attached too, but she was something else.

Lady Jane Foster, the wife of his brother Thor. Many years before Loki had gone down to Midgard with the intent to slaughter her, box her heart and bring it to Thor to make him suffer but he could not she had a brilliant mind, the two became friends and Loki started to open up to he. Jane helped heal Loki in ways no other could. She helped him fix his marriage and with the birth of his son Narvi all had seemed well and good everyone was happy and Loki had finally forgiven Odin and would bring his son to see his grandfather often.

Then the news came, Jane Foster, his sister in law and best friend was going to die. Her mortal heart could not hold out. Loki started to push his family away to spend what little time she had with her. Things inside of his mind not connecting right the friendship he had felt for her felt like more in his forming grief.

When the day came that he murdered her to save her from the pain coming something inside of him snapped. It had taken a lot of convincing to get permission to have Jane and her mother buried in Ironwoods. Maybe it was his grief that had convinced his former lover to let him bury the mortal and her mother in her woods.

Loki was already slipping then. It didn't take long before his mind went into forbidden places. He knew that sometimes they raised the dead during battle or even for knowlage but for such selfish reasons as refusing to be alone, even if he was not. She was not buried per-say as much laid inside a glass case much in the style of sleeping beauty with a spell cast upon her with the combined power of Loki and Sigyn to keep her from rotting. Loki had had to go to great lengths to make sure she was not embalmed. Still she would always be protected from decay because of the burial spell.

It was thundering and lighting over the great Ironwoods when Loki's persence hit the forest coming into the clearing where here body had been. The spirit inside of a necklace so not to have it vanish. He threw the heavy lid off of the coffin as rain poured down, the necklace placed upon the body before he set about preparing the spell.

Awhile later Loki feel to the ground gasping as smoke rolled from the beautiful glass case she had been meant to spend eternity in, he had used a great deal of magic to fuse the body and soul as one again and fix her heart as much as he could for now. In time it may need to be replaced but on the stormy night a sinful deed had been done. He had revived the love of his brothers life, the woman whom helped keep him together before. Now though, now he was too far gone for saving.

"Jane....Jane can you hear me?" He asked as he gasped from the ground trying to collect himself.
bifroster: (and the world comes crashing down)

[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Jane gasped.

And felt her heart clench painfully before it went away. She was talking with Hel, having a normal conversation... wasn't she? She was getting used to death, being dead, only seeing those she loved on occasion when they came down to visit, if they could. She hadn't seen Thor in months. So where was she...

The rain started to fall and she shivered. How long had it been since she truly felt anything? She was enough of a scientist to figure out that she was no longer dead. That something had happened. Did Odin, in pity of his sons, find a way to bring her back? Or did he make a deal with Hel and didn't tell anyone?

She sat up with shock when it hit her. She was alive.

And through the rain she saw...

"Loki?!"
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 03:15 pm (UTC)(link)
She took his hand, her whole body creaking from being in such a state. She licked her lips and something still felt off. Wrong. A few layers of wrong. She was not supposed to be here, something told her. It was not her time or it was past her time or something. To him, her skin would be like ice, and her grip would be weak.

"What do you mean?" she whispered. "How can... how am I alive again?"

Immediately, she worried. What had he done?
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
She was already starting to shake from the wind and rain, but nodded and moved with him. No matter what he had done, she still trusted him—he was still Loki. She just didn't know where his mind was, or how fractured it was. The visits had helped... but she could still tell that he wasn't fixed. Far from it.

"Loki," she said, holding onto his arm for support. Her body was so slow she was used to being able to keep up with his strides. "Does anyone else know?"

She would have thought Thor would be here if he did.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
She yelped when he suddenly lifted her up and started running, clinging to his shoulders. The storm was getting worse like he said, and Jane knew that something bad would happen. His voice said it, his words said it, how he was running from Angrboda said it.

"Loki, what is going on? Tell me! What did you do?"

No one else knew. She thought... she thought he was getting... She should have never let him come down and visit her. She should have made him grieve properly and then come. Doing both at the same time just made things worse, didn't they? Guilt sat like a heavy rock in her stomach. If he had hurt someone, if he had taken someone's life or traded something important to him, then it was all her fault.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
She grieved too. She had seen what her death, her absence had done to them, all of them. She wanted so much to make things better, but she couldn't. She was dead and she was horrified that he had gone to such lengths. Struggling in his arms a little, she tried to get him to stop running. Forget about the rain—this was madness!

"Loki, stop!"

She didn't want this. All of the worst scenarios were coming into her mind. She couldn't think straight. What would everyone else do when they learned of what he did? Didn't he know that they were going through the same thing? The same pain? Didn't he know that they would still love him, would still be proud without her?
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
He rarely, if ever, snapped at her. Only during the beginning, when they didn't know each other, did he ever yell or snap or grip her so hard.

How much damage had she done to him by just knowing him?

"Please, Loki," she begged, her arms coming around his shoulders and holding him tightly. She didn't want him to see the pain and fear on her face at what he had become, what she might possibly be now. How could she be happy when it was obvious that he... she didn't know what. All she knew was thta she wasn't happy, something was just wrong. "We need to talk. You need to tell me everything. Please."
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
She grabbed his hand before he could move away from her. She could feel the bruises forming on her arms and shoulders, but she would forgive him later for that. They were just bruises. But she had to have those questions answered.

"A little rain won't hurt me. Remember the story about me and a dust devil?" she said quietly. She had to be calm. He might calm down then as well, even a little. "Loki, please, answer my questions."

He had to answer them.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 05:48 pm (UTC)(link)
She didn't notice the blood, or the magic. She could feel it crawling on her skin, still working its way through her system like some sort of strange drug. It made her want to crawl into a corner and sob, let it work itself out, but she had to be strong. She could see how frayed he was... and she worried about how long he could still hold himself together.

So Hel did know. But why didn't she say anything? Or told Jane about the trade? It was just too much of a shock to her like this.

"What about you?" she asked. "Just tell me where the clothes are, I'll change. You go rest, okay?" Maybe if he got some rest, he would be a little easier to talk with. She wouldn't say a little more sane; that would take much more than a few hours sleep.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Jane swallowed. A place trapped in time. Like her body was in her coffin, and her spirit back with Hel and her domain.

"You take the bed," she offered. "I want to move around and get used to my legs again. How... long has it been?"

It felt so odd that she lost track of time. When was the last time she had seen Thor or Sigyn? Was that a part of death? You forgot everything and let your sense of identity slip away until you just existed? Was there some sort of reincarnation process like the Greeks with their river of Lethe?

No that she had any intention of leaving; he would just find her. It would hurt him too much if she just left now.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"I wouldn't be fit enough to fight wolves if I was perfectly healthy," she joked, smiling so he would have something to smile about. Something a little normal. She just hoped she would be able to sleep herself and not sleep in, like she sometimes did. It might... not bode well in the future.

"You said we." Jane looked up at him after looking at the dress, seeing him walk away. Sigyn would notice its absence, and Loki's. She would wonder and speculate. Worry. His little son would wonder and worry too. Loki rarely left his side before she died. Would he notice the change in his father? Would he understand? Once she dressed in another room, she went to the bedroom and watched him rest for a moment and held her breath.

What would happen now?
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Jane watched him for some minutes more before going out to the couch and sitting. She should be happy. Maybe she would when she saw Thor and everyone else again, when she was reunited with everyone and her questions could be answered. He looked so tired, so haunted. If only there had been some way they could have repaired her heart before she died, before he felt the need to end her life before it withered away painfully.

She could hear wolves far outside of the house, and tried not to be afraid. Loki... wouldn't let anything happen to her. Not after all he sacrificed. She would have to do her best to take care of him now, it seemed.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
She did, on the couch, her legs tucked up under her and her hair in her face from tossing and turning. It was not that she was uncomfortable, but her body was just getting used to being alive again, working. Memories and dreams and nightmares ran through her mind, and it was just... She didn't know what to think of it, even as she slept. The sounds of the wolves eventually lulled her to sleep, and it was silent now. She would be waking up soon.

Her breathing would be even and soft, and she would be worried over him the moment she saw those cuts.

Maybe someday he would have happy days like those again.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
...she would think about it later.

Much later when things were alright and they were home again. She knew he did what he had to do, and he acted out of love. He didn't want her to die painfully. He wanted everyone to remember her as she was. He was the one who would know what he eyes looked like as she died, remember the snap in her neck. She never thanked him for making it quick. She stirred when he spoke, and opened her eyes. It was so odd, sleeping. She hadn't in a year.

"We're going back to Asgard?"

Though she should have been happy, she really was, a part of her was fearful. What would they do when they arrived?
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-06 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"I promised to protect you guys too, all of you," she said, taking his hand and standing up. Her knees no longer shook, but it was going to take some getting used to again. So if anyone thought he was doing this for petty reasons, she would jump for his defense. How could anyone think that of him? She could see the pain all over his face and she had only seen him for a few hours.

She bit her lip, feeling horrible for all of this. An illogical guilt. "Loki, I'm sorry."
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-07 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
"But..." Her protests fell on her lips. The Loki she had known, the one who was saner than this, was gone or hidden away somewhere, trying to cope with this the best way he knew how: through tricks and lies. She was just shocked that he would go to such extremes for her... and hoped that everyone else would forgive him and accept her. Because this was her body and she was pulled from Niflheim. She remembered that much before Loki whisked her off.

As he tugged, she followed.

"I wish I did. Then we wouldn't have to worry."

Then you wouldn't have had to do this.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-07 02:07 pm (UTC)(link)
And Jane knew all of this through what others had told him, what he had revealed himself. Ever since he knocked down her door years ago, Jane had also done the same, but maybe with a bit of a gentler hand, and was the one who convinced him to start at least thinking about his feelings and trying to figure them out. Asgard might be wonderful, but it was so backwards (and horrible) in some ways as well. He shouldn't be looked down upon for his personality, for his ways and likes. Like Sigyn, Jane thought he should be appreciated a little more.

Praying that she was doing the right thing, she allowed him to help her on the horse, trying not to think of the burning house.

"They shouldn't always be cross with you. You should be able to do what you want, within reason, and not fear judgement so much."
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-08 02:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Jane didn't know any of that, but she would agree that it was a good thing he had done, saving that family. If she knew the consequences of his actions, what it took to bring her back, she would tell him to send her back. Send her back to the underworld and make another deal with Hel to reverse the damage that had been done. Family was important to her, and she didn't like being away from them, but that price was too high.

So she nodded and held on tight. She had been on the Bifrost a few times, and it was always a bumpy ride.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-08 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
If they could have Loki be sound of mind again, then all would be well. If he could have moved on, all would be well. Jane's stomach churned. There was so much he wasn't telling her... and she feared what everyone else would think. She had died. Dead people were not supposed to be coming back, not until the end of the world at least.

"How will everyone react?" she called back, trying to make her voice carry over the wind that was blowing.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-08 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"I care!" she exclaimed. "Loki, did you even think about this through?"

Something was wrong with him. As soon as she got off the horse in Asgard, she would have to find Odin, or Thor. Something was very wrong. And if a ritual was going to be performed to bring her back, why didn't Hel say anything to her? Until then, she would have to try to get as much information as possible out of him.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-08 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)
"How can I not worry!" Jane exclaimed. Gods, what did he do? Did he even think this through? Or did he just go on a whim again? "Loki, something dear could be anything! Anyone! Did you even ask Hel what she was going to take? Did she even say?"

There was no such thing as equivalent trade.
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[personal profile] bifroster 2012-06-08 03:26 pm (UTC)(link)
That just made her worry and fear worse. He didn't think things through, he didn't ask... he obviously didn't discuss anything with Sigyn or Thor.

"Loki, what if I wasn't supposed to come back?!"

Not that she wouldn't love coming back, or that she didn't miss Thor and everyone else. But what if she wasn't meant to? Or what if by killing her before she had naturally died, Loki had prevented something else from happening that would have stopped her from dying in the first place?