Loki Odinson-Laufeyson (
ihasanarmy) wrote2012-06-06 09:44 am
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Log: Move your dead bones
Log: Inside the Fire
Who: Jane, and Loki
Where: The Ironwoods maybe Asgard
What: Loki brings Jane back at a high cost.
He had had mortal lovers in the past, shit he had spent ages as a farmers maid back in the older days of the world when he was still young but already a man. He had spent his time on the farm as a woman until he grew bored before returning to Asgard. Loki generally tried not to bother with mortals their lives were too short to become emotionally attached too, but she was something else.
Lady Jane Foster, the wife of his brother Thor. Many years before Loki had gone down to Midgard with the intent to slaughter her, box her heart and bring it to Thor to make him suffer but he could not she had a brilliant mind, the two became friends and Loki started to open up to he. Jane helped heal Loki in ways no other could. She helped him fix his marriage and with the birth of his son Narvi all had seemed well and good everyone was happy and Loki had finally forgiven Odin and would bring his son to see his grandfather often.
Then the news came, Jane Foster, his sister in law and best friend was going to die. Her mortal heart could not hold out. Loki started to push his family away to spend what little time she had with her. Things inside of his mind not connecting right the friendship he had felt for her felt like more in his forming grief.
When the day came that he murdered her to save her from the pain coming something inside of him snapped. It had taken a lot of convincing to get permission to have Jane and her mother buried in Ironwoods. Maybe it was his grief that had convinced his former lover to let him bury the mortal and her mother in her woods.
Loki was already slipping then. It didn't take long before his mind went into forbidden places. He knew that sometimes they raised the dead during battle or even for knowlage but for such selfish reasons as refusing to be alone, even if he was not. She was not buried per-say as much laid inside a glass case much in the style of sleeping beauty with a spell cast upon her with the combined power of Loki and Sigyn to keep her from rotting. Loki had had to go to great lengths to make sure she was not embalmed. Still she would always be protected from decay because of the burial spell.
It was thundering and lighting over the great Ironwoods when Loki's persence hit the forest coming into the clearing where here body had been. The spirit inside of a necklace so not to have it vanish. He threw the heavy lid off of the coffin as rain poured down, the necklace placed upon the body before he set about preparing the spell.
Awhile later Loki feel to the ground gasping as smoke rolled from the beautiful glass case she had been meant to spend eternity in, he had used a great deal of magic to fuse the body and soul as one again and fix her heart as much as he could for now. In time it may need to be replaced but on the stormy night a sinful deed had been done. He had revived the love of his brothers life, the woman whom helped keep him together before. Now though, now he was too far gone for saving.
"Jane....Jane can you hear me?" He asked as he gasped from the ground trying to collect himself.
Who: Jane, and Loki
Where: The Ironwoods maybe Asgard
What: Loki brings Jane back at a high cost.
He had had mortal lovers in the past, shit he had spent ages as a farmers maid back in the older days of the world when he was still young but already a man. He had spent his time on the farm as a woman until he grew bored before returning to Asgard. Loki generally tried not to bother with mortals their lives were too short to become emotionally attached too, but she was something else.
Lady Jane Foster, the wife of his brother Thor. Many years before Loki had gone down to Midgard with the intent to slaughter her, box her heart and bring it to Thor to make him suffer but he could not she had a brilliant mind, the two became friends and Loki started to open up to he. Jane helped heal Loki in ways no other could. She helped him fix his marriage and with the birth of his son Narvi all had seemed well and good everyone was happy and Loki had finally forgiven Odin and would bring his son to see his grandfather often.
Then the news came, Jane Foster, his sister in law and best friend was going to die. Her mortal heart could not hold out. Loki started to push his family away to spend what little time she had with her. Things inside of his mind not connecting right the friendship he had felt for her felt like more in his forming grief.
When the day came that he murdered her to save her from the pain coming something inside of him snapped. It had taken a lot of convincing to get permission to have Jane and her mother buried in Ironwoods. Maybe it was his grief that had convinced his former lover to let him bury the mortal and her mother in her woods.
Loki was already slipping then. It didn't take long before his mind went into forbidden places. He knew that sometimes they raised the dead during battle or even for knowlage but for such selfish reasons as refusing to be alone, even if he was not. She was not buried per-say as much laid inside a glass case much in the style of sleeping beauty with a spell cast upon her with the combined power of Loki and Sigyn to keep her from rotting. Loki had had to go to great lengths to make sure she was not embalmed. Still she would always be protected from decay because of the burial spell.
It was thundering and lighting over the great Ironwoods when Loki's persence hit the forest coming into the clearing where here body had been. The spirit inside of a necklace so not to have it vanish. He threw the heavy lid off of the coffin as rain poured down, the necklace placed upon the body before he set about preparing the spell.
Awhile later Loki feel to the ground gasping as smoke rolled from the beautiful glass case she had been meant to spend eternity in, he had used a great deal of magic to fuse the body and soul as one again and fix her heart as much as he could for now. In time it may need to be replaced but on the stormy night a sinful deed had been done. He had revived the love of his brothers life, the woman whom helped keep him together before. Now though, now he was too far gone for saving.
"Jane....Jane can you hear me?" He asked as he gasped from the ground trying to collect himself.

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And felt her heart clench painfully before it went away. She was talking with Hel, having a normal conversation... wasn't she? She was getting used to death, being dead, only seeing those she loved on occasion when they came down to visit, if they could. She hadn't seen Thor in months. So where was she...
The rain started to fall and she shivered. How long had it been since she truly felt anything? She was enough of a scientist to figure out that she was no longer dead. That something had happened. Did Odin, in pity of his sons, find a way to bring her back? Or did he make a deal with Hel and didn't tell anyone?
She sat up with shock when it hit her. She was alive.
And through the rain she saw...
"Loki?!"
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"Welcome back to the land of the living my dearest sister." He had never thought to ask Odin, never not once. He should have but he knew the Allfather was growing weak in his older age Loki wished not to kill the man with his selfish wants.
"Come, let us get you out of the rain before you catch your death again." He spoke softly standing at ready to help her down.
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"What do you mean?" she whispered. "How can... how am I alive again?"
Immediately, she worried. What had he done?
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"We found a way to bring you back, you will live your days now." He spoke as he started to move forward keeping his grip on her shoulders to force her along. "The Liesmith knows you must have many many questions but we can not answer them now." He spoke his words a little off though they sounded find to him.
"Come come, the storm grows worse."
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"Loki," she said, holding onto his arm for support. Her body was so slow she was used to being able to keep up with his strides. "Does anyone else know?"
She would have thought Thor would be here if he did.
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Feeling how slow she was going and her shaking Loki turned scooping the woman up in his arms. "We can not linger here. Angrboda will surly know we have been here and come to see whats happened. We must be gone." Oh that never sounded good or the fact that Loki started to run holding her in his arms in bridal style as he dashed through the woods as he used to do in the days Fenrir was a puppy. He expected to hear the wolves of the woods but he heard none only the thunder and his own heavy tired breathing.
"Not yet, no they cant know yet. We have to make sure you are better first. Then we can tell them. They will be very pleased with their Liesmith then."
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"Loki, what is going on? Tell me! What did you do?"
No one else knew. She thought... she thought he was getting... She should have never let him come down and visit her. She should have made him grieve properly and then come. Doing both at the same time just made things worse, didn't they? Guilt sat like a heavy rock in her stomach. If he had hurt someone, if he had taken someone's life or traded something important to him, then it was all her fault.
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"Only Father or the Norns are allowed to touch death magic! Very few are permitted to do so but we knew we could do it." He hissed as he ran the storm getting much worse as he ran as they broke free of the woods he ran through a field, off in the distance was a farm house which seemed to lack any lights yet that was where Loki was running them. The place was half falling apart, clearly deserted but he had to get her out of the rain.
He should have grieved and learned to live again, he never should have been so dependent on a mortal, it should have been his wife that he was so attached too. What was done was done.
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"Loki, stop!"
She didn't want this. All of the worst scenarios were coming into her mind. She couldn't think straight. What would everyone else do when they learned of what he did? Didn't he know that they were going through the same thing? The same pain? Didn't he know that they would still love him, would still be proud without her?
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He snapped back at her as he still kept going his grip on her tightening. The poor thing having to watch those he cared about suffer and despair over her loss. The gods knew better then to be with mortals yet this woman had made her way into their lives and it had been the best of times which lead into as a Dickens said the worst of times.
He should and he did at the same time yet something in him refused to accept it, part of him felt he had to have her there, that she was some key to hold them all together. "We are almost there Jane please stop struggling!" A hint of annoyance in his voice at her struggling he had thought she would be much happier laughing smiling at being alive again. He couldn't grasp why she would want him to stop.
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How much damage had she done to him by just knowing him?
"Please, Loki," she begged, her arms coming around his shoulders and holding him tightly. She didn't want him to see the pain and fear on her face at what he had become, what she might possibly be now. How could she be happy when it was obvious that he... she didn't know what. All she knew was thta she wasn't happy, something was just wrong. "We need to talk. You need to tell me everything. Please."
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Walking in through the house he moved to find the sofa finally letting her down his hair was dripping and his eyes widened as he looked down at her. "You'll be safe now Jane. Just rest." Yes he did ignore her questions to him he did not feel the need to answer them.
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"A little rain won't hurt me. Remember the story about me and a dust devil?" she said quietly. She had to be calm. He might calm down then as well, even a little. "Loki, please, answer my questions."
He had to answer them.
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"Yes, a fearless woman you are." He muttered finally kneeling before the couch to look at her as the lightning clapped his face was lit up, the scars on his lips his skin paler then before and the oh so tired eyes. The god of mischief was more then fraying at the seams.
"We made a trade with our darling daughter for the soul of the lost sister. The rest was pour magic and some blood." Yes if she looked down her gown was covered in more then rain. Bits of sticks and leaves that all had beautiful smells to them, items of magic clinging to her dress and blood. The bottom half of the dress was practically caked in it. Thankfully the rain had washed away the symbols he had drawn on her in the blood, but whose blood was it. "You are alive, you just need rest so we can venture back to Asgard."
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So Hel did know. But why didn't she say anything? Or told Jane about the trade? It was just too much of a shock to her like this.
"What about you?" she asked. "Just tell me where the clothes are, I'll change. You go rest, okay?" Maybe if he got some rest, he would be a little easier to talk with. She wouldn't say a little more sane; that would take much more than a few hours sleep.
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"they are in the backroom, the bed is there too. This place." He looked up his eyes looking from the ceiling to her. "Belonged to a family we once protected, since their deaths we have kept it sealed from time." A family that had prayed to Odin and Thor but Loki answered their prayers instead killing a troll. "You may rest in there, we shall stay here and keep watch and rest here." He spoke a bit shaky looking about the home trapped in time.
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"You take the bed," she offered. "I want to move around and get used to my legs again. How... long has it been?"
It felt so odd that she lost track of time. When was the last time she had seen Thor or Sigyn? Was that a part of death? You forgot everything and let your sense of identity slip away until you just existed? Was there some sort of reincarnation process like the Greeks with their river of Lethe?
No that she had any intention of leaving; he would just find her. It would hurt him too much if she just left now.
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"It has been nearly a year, Narvi is now learning magic under his mother as none feel it safe to allow my child near me long enough to teach him anything. They say we've gone mad. That be not true." He muttered going on into the room the dark one found himself laid across the bed his body being more tired then he dared truly speak.
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"You said we." Jane looked up at him after looking at the dress, seeing him walk away. Sigyn would notice its absence, and Loki's. She would wonder and speculate. Worry. His little son would wonder and worry too. Loki rarely left his side before she died. Would he notice the change in his father? Would he understand? Once she dressed in another room, she went to the bedroom and watched him rest for a moment and held her breath.
What would happen now?
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Poor Narvi was not around his father as much as he had been before Jane's death, he had was now mostly around his Grandmother grandfather, uncle and mother as Loki was becoming more and more irrational as weeks turned to months. When he had his moments of clairity he loved to be around his family but when everything went hazy again he mostly locked himself away in his study so not to frighten them.
AS he slept his body worked to replenish his strenth and take the rest he was able to let it have in a world of dreams where none of this happened. Where everything was still fine. If she did fall asleep it was okay Loki would wake with the sun he always had since boyhood.
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She could hear wolves far outside of the house, and tried not to be afraid. Loki... wouldn't let anything happen to her. Not after all he sacrificed. She would have to do her best to take care of him now, it seemed.
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When morning came Loki arose sitting up the sight of the sun coming in through the dusty windows and despite how tired he felt he forced himself to sit up his mind replaying the night. Oh god, he had not done thise had he. yanking the leather bracers he kept over his sleeves off Loki pulled his sleeve up to see the slices up his arms.
'Lastly the blood of a powerful sorcerer'
That was part of why he had been so tired and sluggish it was his blood Jane had been covered in, that was why his bracers had been tied so very tight as a makeshift tourniquet. The wounds were mostly healed as the trickster stumbled out of the room tiing the leather straps back over his sleeves. He went to look for Jane to see if she still slumbered.
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Her breathing would be even and soft, and she would be worried over him the moment she saw those cuts.
Maybe someday he would have happy days like those again.
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Moving over to the couch he leaned down brushing some of the hair from her face. "Jane, sister. We can stay here no longer. We must go to Asgard now." He spoke softly, looking down at her. His eyes clear for now as he had just woken, but he worried he could see how uneasy she looked... he had killed this woman and yet he had brought her backhow this all must feel to her he wondered.
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Much later when things were alright and they were home again. She knew he did what he had to do, and he acted out of love. He didn't want her to die painfully. He wanted everyone to remember her as she was. He was the one who would know what he eyes looked like as she died, remember the snap in her neck. She never thanked him for making it quick. She stirred when he spoke, and opened her eyes. It was so odd, sleeping. She hadn't in a year.
"We're going back to Asgard?"
Though she should have been happy, she really was, a part of her was fearful. What would they do when they arrived?
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He hoped all would go well he knew some would think what he had done was to hurt Thor some kind of trick but none would truly understand how much he had done it done himself.
"I promised to protect you. And I will." He spoke the clairity in his tone as the hand was held out to her. "Nothing shall happen to you as long as I am here." But sometimes even when he was in the room he wasn't really there anymore.
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She bit her lip, feeling horrible for all of this. An illogical guilt. "Loki, I'm sorry."
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Loki had done a many terrible things in his life though none so bad as to bring in his brothers dead wife but many may think its a badly tasted jest, a body much like the late Jane. WHo knows what the gods think when it comes to Loki.
"You have nothing to be sorry for, least to me."
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As he tugged, she followed.
"I wish I did. Then we wouldn't have to worry."
Then you wouldn't have had to do this.
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As the reached the barn he whistled, one of the horses came stepping out. It had a dark coat and brilliant markings. This had been Loki's steed for ages for when he had to ride out into battle with Thor. Mounting the steed he held a hand back out to Jane. "But? But what, you need not worry non shall be cross with you and we both know they are always cross with me now come on if we hurry we can return before Narvi finishes his lessons for the day." When he had his moments of clarity his son was much more important then things and about that time the house started to fall in on itself and burn. Loki's magic at work though it still be weak fire spells are easy for the sorcerer.
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Praying that she was doing the right thing, she allowed him to help her on the horse, trying not to think of the burning house.
"They shouldn't always be cross with you. You should be able to do what you want, within reason, and not fear judgement so much."
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His eyes were on the house as he pulled her up he could still remember himself young, Odin and Thor had not heard the prayers of that family. They were busy with a party, Loki had known not why he had gone down more then hearing the gaint claim he was to eat the child of the farmer, the boy was slow of mind and body and thus Loki came to their aid, beheading the giant and piking it's head on a pole in the yard telling them 'Do not pray to Odin and Thor! You pray to Loki, do you understand? Loki has saved you! Most knew not that at times Loki still snuck down until the family had passed as the boy never married claiming their home when it was empty one of his few truly good acts he could not have let die so well, and now his good act then helped him do another now. Least in his mind.
Pulling the reigns hard he set off not too fast yet. "Your going to want to hold onto me, we have to take the Byfrost at least part of the way." He called back to her.
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So she nodded and held on tight. She had been on the Bifrost a few times, and it was always a bumpy ride.
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Loki got the stallion into a full gallop as they came onto the rainbow bridge calling back "All will be well now that you are back." He called back to her.
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"How will everyone react?" she called back, trying to make her voice carry over the wind that was blowing.
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The ride would take a little while yet.
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Something was wrong with him. As soon as she got off the horse in Asgard, she would have to find Odin, or Thor. Something was very wrong. And if a ritual was going to be performed to bring her back, why didn't Hel say anything to her? Until then, she would have to try to get as much information as possible out of him.
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Only Loki did not know what he had traded off, or just how dear it was to him, he would never for a second think his own flesh and blood would take one of her sibblings, least not from the womb. He knew Hel addored Narvi all did but he knew not that Sigyn was with child. "Worry your mind not Jane!"
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There was no such thing as equivalent trade.
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Oh gods Loki, what had he done.
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"Loki, what if I wasn't supposed to come back?!"
Not that she wouldn't love coming back, or that she didn't miss Thor and everyone else. But what if she wasn't meant to? Or what if by killing her before she had naturally died, Loki had prevented something else from happening that would have stopped her from dying in the first place?